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been saying “I love you” a lot more lately, less goodbyes and more “i’ll see u soon.” more smiles and less frowns, more happy tears less “I wanna end it right now” sobs. more “i’ll see u in heaven” and less “I want to see you now.” I haven’t been holding back. I blow up my friend’s phones and I watch the school doors shut behind my younger siblings. i listen more and i talk less. i watch my grandpas eyes crinkle when he smiles. i listen to my dads snores and match my breaths with his. i hold doors open to strangers and can’t resist the urge to tell beautiful people they’re beautiful. i smile at strangers on the train and i gaze out the window instead of staring at my phone. things I should’ve done a long time ago. life is short but my life is shorter. I want to die knowing I told the people I love that I love them. my time is running out, I think about that often. I wish I spent more time loving the people I love instead of running away from them. counting my minutes they’re counting my seconds, i’ll be seeing you soon I think Omid.