stones overturned

today I begin to believe. all the spells women tend to preach hitting my ears like a drum I can never not hear. today I gave up. in hope I didn’t even know i had until it was gone. believing in demise instead of a kindness only in disguise it’s as though my worst fears have in fact been true. my nightmares now the unknown reality I have been living through. there are truths we shouldn’t know but every stone overturned has a glimmer not shown. hard ridges mistaken for soft edges, familiarity is all we’ve ever really known. and all we’ll ever really know.